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kanino ko ikakawing ang aking pananampalataya, kung ang mundo natin ngayon ay puno ng sigwa? paano pagtitibayin ang pananalig ko't tiwala, kung ang lahat na ata sa paligid ay masama? tayo man ay nakakalimot sa plano ng Lumikha, wala sa plano Nya na tayo'y ipagwalang bahala... Ang tyanging nais lamang, ang tayo ay maligtas, manalig at dumaan sa tuwid at makipot na landas. ngunit kanino nga kaya dapat ikawing ang pananampalataya? kung ang kaisa-isang sandigan, di nakakasalamuha? at kahit pa nga dumarating ang mga biyaya, sa sariling lakas pa rin nagtitiwala. paano ba pagtitibayin pananalig at tiwala, kung damdami'y, puno ng lumbay at kawalang pag asa? kaya't kahit pa nga nasa harap na ang himala, bakit hindi ito makita ng ating mga mata? Subalit lagi nating pakatatandaan, Hindi tayo kaylanman pababayaan, Dahil Kanya sa ating ipinadala mga magpapatatag sa pananampalataya... Kinakausap Nya tayo sa lahat na uri ngparaan upang pagmamahal Nya, sa ati'y maipaalam.. Tul...

Maraming fairy tales ang nagtapos sa mga katagang ito!. pero mayroon nga bang ever after? At paano kayang naging Happy ang ever after nila?... kung papansinin natin ang lahat ng fairy tales na nagtapos sa... "And they lived happily ever after" hindi naman naging madali at laging masaya ang buhay nila! katulad na lang ni Rapunzel, na ikinulong mag isa sa pagkataas-taas na tore... isipin mo na lang na lumaking mag isa sa malamig na toreng iyon... nakakabagot na!!, e kung dadalawin ka pa ng wicked witch? e di sobrang stressful! Isama pa na bago ka mailigtas ng iyong prince ay kailangang lambitingan ang mahaba mong buhok! ang sakit kaya nun? si snow white.... na ilang beses pinagtangkaan ang buhay, dahil lamang kinaiingitan ng kanyang stepmom ang kanyang ganda... marahil minsan ay naisip nyang sumpa ang labis niyang kagandahan!!.. idagdag pang sya'y muntik ng mahimbing ng tuluyan dahil lamang sa isang mansanas! ganun ba sya katakaw?... mabuti na ...

DISTANCE is a lonely companion.... just when you thought that everything is going very well... just when you thought you were secured with your feelings.. suddenly a grenade was thrown to you... and the shrapnel torn your heart apart... TRUST is something that you freely gave... so why cry when it was betrayed? Don't expect that you can trust those you think you can... because they, too, might need something you cannot give... and that's where the big difference is felt... and so you were singing.... But life does not end here my child..... you gave half of your heart away.... try to take it back.... but if taking it back would only hurt you even more..... then... Find a boy who calls you beautiful rather than hot! ... a boy who calls back when you hang up... ... a boy who will stay awake just to watch you sleep... ...and who will wait till you wakes up just to say how pretty you are... ... a boy who looks straight into your eyes, hold your h...

hawak ni Marc ang kamay ko, habang humihilik sya sa maghapong trabaho... di ako makatulog... at ala una na, tahimik na ang paligid....maliban kay ampie (yung aso namin) na paminsan minsang tumatahol sa mga kabataang ngayun pa lang uuwi, malamang galing sa magdamagang pag dodota...di pa din ako tulog... pabaling baling.... sisiksik sa tabi ni tatay... sa wakas... makakatulog na din ako...magigising ako at hahanapin ang kamay ni tatay... pero gising na sya at kasalukuyang naliligo para simulan ang araw nya...alas singko na siguro....mag iin-in pa ako ng kaunti... pero sa pag iin-ing yon... hala 6:00 na pala... mabilis akong babangon, para magsaing at magluto ng baon namin para sa araw na ito...mag iinit ng tubig na pampaligo ni sage at caleb....tapos tataas para mag plantsa ng aming uniporme...hanap-hanap-hanap-hanap-hanap- (kakainis na tiklupin ito... sando lang ang hahanapin.. aabutin na ako ng isang dekada bago mahanap) YES, nakita ko din.... plantsa-hanger-plantsa-h...

Minahal kita ng una mong iparamdam sa aking importante ako... sa unang pagkakataon sa aking buhay may nag aalala para sa akin, bukod sa aking pamilya.. Minahal kita dahil ikaw ang unang nagpatibok ng aking puso... Minahal kita ng unti unting naiparamdam mo sa akin kung paano ang pakiramdam ng minamahal... ikinalungkot ko ang biglaang paglayo mo sa akin,, inisip kong may inaalala ka nang iba... iniluha ko ng ilang gabi ang posibilidad na may ibang laman ang iyong puso... at ipinagdamdam ko ang mga araw na pakiwari ko'y wala na nga ako sa isip mo. subalit muli kitang minahal ng matapos ang dalawang taon... (dalawang taong pinilit kong lumimot at akala ko'y napagtagumpayan ko na iyon)... nagbalik ka upang iparamdam sa akin ang higit na pag aalala... ang iparamdam sa aking ako ang sadyang laman ng puso't isip mo... Minahal kita dahil ang iyo palang paglayo ay hindi nangangahulugan ng pagtalikod... subalit ng matiyagang paghihintay upang ako'y mag idad pa ng k...

naisip mo na ba minsan na ikaw ay isang ligaw na bulaklak? isang damong kasing taas ng talahib kung lumaki... isang damong ligaw na sumasama lamng sa lipad ng hangin? minsan, ang buhay natin ay parang damong ligaw lang, tumutubo kahit sa di inaasahang lugar. mayroong sadyang itinanim, meron din namang ninais na alisin sa kinatatamnan. kung tutuusin, madilim ang buhay ng mga damong ligaw... hindi sila ninanais ng kahit sinong hardinero.. hindi din sila ng pinapansin lalo pa at kahalo sila sa karamihan.. pero sa likod ng dilim ng pagiging damong ligaw, gaya ng ibang halaman mayroon din itong bulaklak! mayroon itong munting ganda... at dahil ito ay isang nilikha di man batid sa ating kaalaman, ang damong ligaw mayroon ding halaga! kaya't sa susunod na maiisip mong tila isa ka na lamang damong ligaw na dinadan daanan.... isipin mong isa kang damong ligaw na di mo man batid kung ano ang iyong dahilan sa kasalukuyan... sa hinaharap tiyak, sa iyo'y may nakalaa...

nag iisa ngayon sa aming bahay.. wala namang lagnat wala ding nararamdamang sakit... pero di makapag linis.. di din makapag laba.. bakit nga ba? eh kasi kinakapos ng hininga.. kaya eto kanina pa kaharap ang libro... binabasa.. nasawa kaya eto.. kausap ka! nakakainip.. nakakbagot.. kung meron mang isang maganda itong naidulot.. yun ay ang kasama ko ngayong manananghalian ang tatlong minamahal kong kalalakihan. at meron pa palang isa.. nakakapag isip ako ngayon ng malaya.. at naiisip kong... masarap maging isang ina at asawa! ....

this summer... i had this chance of being an enumerator... we were the ones who did this house to house thing, interviewing households... it was difficult and tiring but was a nice experience indeed! however, this same experience gave me another taste of how rotten our government system is. from the transferring of communication, to the budget, to the hired personnel and even to the ones who weren't supposed to be in their position but are in there merely because of those who are backing them up! it feels so sad, that however we try on our own to make a difference, it will always go unnoticed! simply put!.... i am hoping that the new president will try with all his heart to initiate that "change" in this poor government system!

isa itong awit ng aking puso isang awit na para lamang sa aking asawa! isa itong awit na isinisigaw ng aking isipan.. isang awit na eksaktong repleksyon ng aking nararamdaman... kaya masi kong ibahagi ang awiting ito sa lahat ng gustong makinig... dahil ang aking walang hanggan... pinapanalangin kong maging konklusyon ng aming pagmamahalan!

i wish i had a twin sister... who walks and talks and thinks exactly like me..... i wish i had a twin sister who will play with me, and shares our toy equally.... i wish i had a twin sister who will be my substitute, who can replace me when in blue, and do the things i can't and won't do... but... being twins are not like that... they are two separate beings who walks distinctly from the other... they are two beautiful individuals who think and act for themselves respectively... they are two loving persons who are not meant to be substitutes... for they are two peculiar being, each with individual worth... just like the flowers from a single pot.... they may have sprouted from the same stem.... but God purposely created them,,, and they can never be exactly the same... so isa and gaby..... your MOM is too kind... that instead of giving her an angel... the heaven intended for her to have two... that's why her gift was the two of you!! KEEP YOUR INDIVIDUALITY!

this is caleb.... our baby.. but he is a babe no more.... we can still remember how he suffered from separation anxiety.. he cries for hours.. and doesn't want to go to school anymore... we patiently encouraged him and was thankful that he finally found a friend... he became more confident and he started to enjoy going to school... he even cries when he missis a class because he is sick! hhe also excelled in his class and had consciously tried to behave himself really well! he ranked third in his class... (we were surprised, since all his classmates have background in school already) we were so proud of him! he also received other awards... which makes us proud even more... he especially loves it so much to finally walk with his tatay on stage to receive one of his awards... (he used to only wait in the audience as he watch his kuya during the previous years ) he even wrote a very beautiful note for us.... we know you'll do more... we love you caleb!

this is our kuya sage... from the smile on his face.. we can see how pleased he is with himself.. but we are more proud for him... we learned of his nearsightedness only late last year.. perhaps this is one of the reason why he is slowly losing interests in his studies... he was the first honor in his first grsde, second in second grade, and now he ranked third! but he receives many other awards... so we told him that he did his best and he could always improve the following year... although he is quite sad... we see to it that we are always behind him.. no matter what! with the help of his classmates.... and all of his teachers... we know he can make it again... and again... and again.. we love you kuya sage!

life is full of many adventures that we always use the word busy! its full of many craziness that we call it a puzzle.. its full of many anecdotes that one may call it a journey! but no matter how we call it... LIFE IS A GIFT. So why not stop for a while and appreciate whatever we have. for these are what we call BLESSINGS why not let the breeze... soothe your aching soul and let the feel of your grass be a carpet to your weary body! we may not be able to enjoy nature in our BUSY world.. but let us stop to look around and see a blossoming flower... thanks to David Alimagno for sharing this pic and for reminding me of how beautiful life can be .. if we will just stop to look for a while!

There was a love story i have known which blossomed like a white rose among the red ones... HE was a son to me... as SHE was a daughter like my own.... Their love was boundless, they had fought space and time... They were miles apart yet his voice was so felt by her heart that she can feel him holding her hands. He is the only one that can calm her.... He makes her listen well... and although she's a brat... His messages would make her want to follow every command. But life isn't a fairy tale... He is a reality... and She's living in a dream.... He is the truth and all there is in her is a fantasy... She has to leave.... or die.... and so my daughter has to sing this song.... But could my son easily forget? could he really say goodbye to the person that made him feel so special and so important? Could he really just easily turn his back to the person who had given him her heart? could he really allow the person, who's heart had been occupied by all his memories, t...

in the midst of excruciating pain... He thought not of Himself but obedience to His Father's will.... on His way to Calvary... He was burdened yet carried it in all humility... during His tiring moment on the cross... He had extended hope to a dying man... while sufferring unfathomable agony... He ask forgiveness in behalf of the insulting soldiers... even during His trembling situation... He thought of a grieving mother's pain... and before His very last breath... He again turned to HIs Father... and all He ever ask was.... to REPENT and be reconciled with HIM. to stop doing the wrong things.. and start doing the right.. to be His friend by keeping His commandments... to make and keep sacred covenants.. to be meek, humble and submissive.. to be like Him... and to claim the blessings that are rightfully ours... In the end.. if we will only think deeply... He ask us... only of one thing... To Think and Act like a child of God. For that is what we truly are!

Sa susunod na haharap ka sa salamin.... nais kong pagmasdan mo ang kaisa isang taong nais kong makasama habang buhay... ang taong nagpapangiti sa akin... ang taong lubos kong minamahal ng higit pa sa mga salitang maaari kong sambitin... ang taong nais kong makasama sa aking pagtanda... kaya sa susunod na pagharap mo sa salamin... tignan mo kung sino ang taong pumupuno sa aking pagkatao... ang taong nais kong bahaginan... ng aking walang hanggan... mahal kita kasi..... mahal kita sa lahat ng anu pa mang kadahilanang maaari mong maisip... sabi mo, mapalad kang nakilala mo ako ... pero lubos akong pinagpala na ikaw ang kasama ko ngayon!

Pebrero 25... napakahalagang araw para sa ating mga pilipino! dalawampu't apat na taon na ang nakalilipas ng maipakita natin sa buong mundo ang ating kakayahang pabagsakin ang isang diktador sa mapayapang paraan.... marahil, bihira na sa mga kabataan ngayon ang makakaalala kung anu man ang naganap noong araw na iyon! ito'y isa na lamang kasaysayang nasusulat sa mga aklat! subalit ano nga ba ang naibigay nito sa atin?... KALAYAAN? Ano bang kalayaan ang ibinigay nito??? ang kalayaan bang pagnakawan natin ang ating pamahalaan? ang kalayaan bang kitlin ang buhay ng mga mamamahayag? ang kalayaan bang magpalabas ng malalaswang panoorin? ang kalayaan bang makapagpuslit ng droga? ang kalayaan bang gamitin ang kapangyarihan sa kalabisan? ang kalayaan bang maproteksyonan ang mga ilegal na sugal? ang kalayaan bang manira ng ibang tao? hindi nga ba't ang ipinaglaban sa EDSA ay ang magkaron tayo ng GANAP NA KALAYAAN? hindi ko na masisi ang ating mga kabataan... maging ako man, na hindi ...

there was a song in my youth which had truly inspired me to be the best that i can be... a song that makes me cry every time i will hear it. a song that made me choose my eternal companion. a song that reminds me that i am a daughter of God and that to this cause i must endure. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aL5UyUVf67I LET US ALL WALK BY FAITH!

Have I Done Any Good in the World Today? if only each of us would think of our neighbors as we would think of ourselves..... if only we could always choose to do good and be good..... if we could only try a little harder to live as if we were in heaven... then,,, life on earth would be just like what Heavenly Father would always wanted us to have!

forever is such a beautiful word... it speaks of not just a lifetime but it encompasses all eternities! minsan, naiisip ko, mayroon bang di magagandang bagay ang nararapat na tumagal ng walang hanggan? everytime the thought of forever will come to me, it gives me both the chill of joy and of fright. nakakatakot isiping mapaparusahan ako, ng walang hanggan dahil sa mga di magagandang bagay na nagawa at nagagawa ko! but it is indeed an unexplainable feeling of joy and happiness, everytime i would think of being forever with my precious family. sabalit, maaari nga kayang makamtan ko, ang aking walang hanggang pamilya... gayong sa aking isipan, ako ay nagkasala? forever families are those who strive to claim their forever, together! forever is not for individuals... the eternities are intended for the continuance of life, of joy, and of love! kung gayon, marapat lamang na iwaksi ang mga kasalanan. kailangang palakasin ang sarili para sa pamilya. kailangang maging isa sa pagbuo ng walang ha...

such a unique word to me! until i've read its meaning! all of us can claim our being sangreal! we have a divine nature! we are blessed to have come to this earth.. such that, if proven worthy, we may return home to our Father. and to the many mansions He has for us! our choices today should be a reflection of our being sangreal! let us choose wisely! using wisdom not just emotions! let us choose the right! and not just those we think is right! our language should sound the trump of our being a sangreal! let us speak of kind words or better hold our tongue! let us speak of the truth! and let appreciating words be in our daily conversations! what we listen to and what we watch should always be parallel to us being a sangreal! let us not allow ourselves to listen to harsh words! nor pollute our eyes with the worldly pleasures! beyond this mortal existence is a life fit for a sangreal like us! should we deny ourselves to the blessings of joy beyond measure? should we not claim our inh...

sage and caleb had their eye test and everything... we learned that nearsightedness can be inherited... we also learned that its better to correct vision during childhood ... sage is nearsighted and caleb is farsighted! sage will be wearing eyeglasses soon! and caleb might be needing one too! an impression came to me! si kuya ay talagang tumitingin lang sa kung anung malapit o nasa harap nya! hindi niya binibigyan ng pansin ang mas malawak na perspective! samantalang si bunso ay pilit na inaalam kung anu ang maaaring mayroon sa hinaharap! it has nothing to do with their eyes! but come to think of it..... we see with our eyes so...i believe it would be better if we look beyond what we see! and find out what the future has instored for us!

gabi na naman! (11:10 sa aking orasan!) at dahil naandito pa ako sa iyong harapan, iyo na sigurong nahuhulaan..... di ako dalawin ng antok! ako na kaya ang dumalaw sa kanya? (kung pwede nga lang sana!) naisin ko mang ipikit ang aking mga mata... gising na gising ang diwa ko at kaluluwa! sa di ko maipaliwanag na dahilan... ang pagtulog ay aking kalaban... ito ba'y dahil sa aking mga kasalanan? o sadyang isang sakit na di ko malunasan? siguro kailangan ko ng kausap.... upang ipaghele ako sa ulap! siguro kailangan ko ng katawanan, upang mabawasan aking kalungkutan! sa anu mang kadahilanan... di ko din maiintindihan.... sais ko lang sabihing... kaibigan, ako sana'y matulungan! ....... im mot sure if it make sense..... but its an impromptu poem... i really wanted some rest now!..

in october 21st 1996 i wrote a poem........ i am not a lady of beauty nor of fame or of gaiety but i have this goal to marry a man that may suit me. he must be sweet, yet he should be strong; he must bring happiness and joy all along! he must be firm in his decisions yet gentle over his dominion; he must be humble and submissive teachable enough and is meek. he must have self mastery and endurance, he must be patient all the time; he must never envy but appreciates, when he ask for blessings, he returns the grace! he learns from opposition, yet he lives in truth; he knows his position, and is always for the good! he has his weaknesses, but he turn it to strength; he gains more knowledge, and keep it as intelligence. he calms the heart and stills the soul; when he receives, he's willing to give more. he is not contented in the beauty of the flower; because for him, it is the sweet fruit that matters. he must be slow to anger, yet quick to repent; he lives in charity and virtue, to w...