eana's world

forever is such a beautiful word... it speaks of not just a lifetime but it encompasses all eternities! minsan, naiisip ko, mayroon bang di magagandang bagay ang nararapat na tumagal ng walang hanggan? everytime the thought of forever will come to me, it gives me both the chill of joy and of fright. nakakatakot isiping mapaparusahan ako, ng walang hanggan dahil sa mga di magagandang bagay na nagawa at nagagawa ko! but it is indeed an unexplainable feeling of joy and happiness, everytime i would think of being forever with my precious family. sabalit, maaari nga kayang makamtan ko, ang aking walang hanggang pamilya... gayong sa aking isipan, ako ay nagkasala? forever families are those who strive to claim their forever, together! forever is not for individuals... the eternities are intended for the continuance of life, of joy, and of love! kung gayon, marapat lamang na iwaksi ang mga kasalanan. kailangang palakasin ang sarili para sa pamilya. kailangang maging isa sa pagbuo ng walang ha...

such a unique word to me! until i've read its meaning! all of us can claim our being sangreal! we have a divine nature! we are blessed to have come to this earth.. such that, if proven worthy, we may return home to our Father. and to the many mansions He has for us! our choices today should be a reflection of our being sangreal! let us choose wisely! using wisdom not just emotions! let us choose the right! and not just those we think is right! our language should sound the trump of our being a sangreal! let us speak of kind words or better hold our tongue! let us speak of the truth! and let appreciating words be in our daily conversations! what we listen to and what we watch should always be parallel to us being a sangreal! let us not allow ourselves to listen to harsh words! nor pollute our eyes with the worldly pleasures! beyond this mortal existence is a life fit for a sangreal like us! should we deny ourselves to the blessings of joy beyond measure? should we not claim our inh...

sage and caleb had their eye test and everything... we learned that nearsightedness can be inherited... we also learned that its better to correct vision during childhood ... sage is nearsighted and caleb is farsighted! sage will be wearing eyeglasses soon! and caleb might be needing one too! an impression came to me! si kuya ay talagang tumitingin lang sa kung anung malapit o nasa harap nya! hindi niya binibigyan ng pansin ang mas malawak na perspective! samantalang si bunso ay pilit na inaalam kung anu ang maaaring mayroon sa hinaharap! it has nothing to do with their eyes! but come to think of it..... we see with our eyes so...i believe it would be better if we look beyond what we see! and find out what the future has instored for us!

gabi na naman! (11:10 sa aking orasan!) at dahil naandito pa ako sa iyong harapan, iyo na sigurong nahuhulaan..... di ako dalawin ng antok! ako na kaya ang dumalaw sa kanya? (kung pwede nga lang sana!) naisin ko mang ipikit ang aking mga mata... gising na gising ang diwa ko at kaluluwa! sa di ko maipaliwanag na dahilan... ang pagtulog ay aking kalaban... ito ba'y dahil sa aking mga kasalanan? o sadyang isang sakit na di ko malunasan? siguro kailangan ko ng kausap.... upang ipaghele ako sa ulap! siguro kailangan ko ng katawanan, upang mabawasan aking kalungkutan! sa anu mang kadahilanan... di ko din maiintindihan.... sais ko lang sabihing... kaibigan, ako sana'y matulungan! ....... im mot sure if it make sense..... but its an impromptu poem... i really wanted some rest now!..

in october 21st 1996 i wrote a poem........ i am not a lady of beauty nor of fame or of gaiety but i have this goal to marry a man that may suit me. he must be sweet, yet he should be strong; he must bring happiness and joy all along! he must be firm in his decisions yet gentle over his dominion; he must be humble and submissive teachable enough and is meek. he must have self mastery and endurance, he must be patient all the time; he must never envy but appreciates, when he ask for blessings, he returns the grace! he learns from opposition, yet he lives in truth; he knows his position, and is always for the good! he has his weaknesses, but he turn it to strength; he gains more knowledge, and keep it as intelligence. he calms the heart and stills the soul; when he receives, he's willing to give more. he is not contented in the beauty of the flower; because for him, it is the sweet fruit that matters. he must be slow to anger, yet quick to repent; he lives in charity and virtue, to w...